About a week after they left, our center went on a youth weekend. I had made my mind up that I was leaving at the end of the summer. There was a new person on the board who was going to come up that weekend. It briefly crossed my mind- "hey he might be cute... maybe some potential". The same thing I thought when I knew there would be any guy I hadn't met before.
These entries were a few days before the retreat and a prayer to God:
"I just need someone where the situation isnt so complicated. I feel like if I open that up... and be vulnerable and begin to trust him [a guy] and give him my heart- he'll leave. and I want someone to love SO much. and I want to know someone and for them to know me-SO much. and I want to share life."
"Okay, my 'fleece is a boyfriend. I need a boyfriend in this month to stay here next year. I need one that I really like, that really likes me. Who will help life, So I'm asking for this. If he doesnt come- then I know you want me to go home, okay? I need you to blow me away and surprise me....It makes me so sad to leave. It's so final, so definite. It's a huge chapter closing- I'm not holding it very well it feels. I'm so sad. This is what I wanted. I wanted to meet someone and marry them- and move to America to finish school- then move wherever. I want someone to keep with me for the rest of my life from here. I would just really like him to be in my life and for us to begin to share our world's."
HA! Very mature right? In any case, on 6/3/2005, I hopped in the back of Colin's car and said, "Hi, I'm Brittany". He mumbled something and was quite rude, so I am surprised I was even attracted to him and began to like him, but I did. Even after our first evening at the youth weekend, I remember journaling about it and about him. I tried to find the entries, but I gave them to Colin at some point and couldn't find them, but I will keep looking! I knew there was something very different and very compelling about him, but I was leaving the country forever and had no idea I would ever see him again. BUt I did see him again and the rest is history.
I also found my 'Husband List' that I started writing at 18. It's so funny that Colin fits this list almost 100% (there are couple that he isn't, but not deal breakers :) ). I guess God knew what he was doing ;)
He seriously is one of the best things/people that has come into my life and he is one of the greatest testament to God's love, protection, and abundance. God did know exactly the kind of man I would need and he put him in my life at just the right time. It's crazy it's been 7 years!!
HA! Very mature right? In any case, on 6/3/2005, I hopped in the back of Colin's car and said, "Hi, I'm Brittany". He mumbled something and was quite rude, so I am surprised I was even attracted to him and began to like him, but I did. Even after our first evening at the youth weekend, I remember journaling about it and about him. I tried to find the entries, but I gave them to Colin at some point and couldn't find them, but I will keep looking! I knew there was something very different and very compelling about him, but I was leaving the country forever and had no idea I would ever see him again. BUt I did see him again and the rest is history.
I also found my 'Husband List' that I started writing at 18. It's so funny that Colin fits this list almost 100% (there are couple that he isn't, but not deal breakers :) ). I guess God knew what he was doing ;)
He seriously is one of the best things/people that has come into my life and he is one of the greatest testament to God's love, protection, and abundance. God did know exactly the kind of man I would need and he put him in my life at just the right time. It's crazy it's been 7 years!!
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